Called home and mom said they are not sure about going to MOFAZ's wedding feast tonight (Malaysian's final night of 2005). If I were there in Malaysia, I would definitely go coz I wanna make my face look famous and well known tehehehe.. Like I can... but the racer guy (Fairuz), who is son to the owner of MOFAZ, actually has an uncle here in Racine, which is 30 minutes driving from my place. Who else, the uncle is my 2nd cousin. You see how I am related to the famous racer? Tehehehe not me but my 2nd cousin, but luckily they invited my mom's family which extends to our 10-member family in Shah Alam (errr should be ten minus one coz hello I am not in Shah Alam right now)... hmmm I wonder, why it sounds that I feel left behind? Naaa, I'm actually missing someone in the northern part of PenMesia.. hope everything is good over there...

Naaa actually I'm counting days.... errr no, I'm looking for an event to celebrate new year... planning to go somewhere which is nowhere coz I could not decide yet where and when... but most probably I'll be going to my 2nd cousin's house again, which includes a house in Gurnee too... hope Zul will join me for the tour... ain't sure what to do yet, but just now we got snow here... hmmm can be a good chance to make a round looking snowman for this time... coz I tried couple of times and always failed to make a round looking one... err what about skiing? Hmmm thinking and thinking and thinking... naaa probably going to Michigan would be better coz most probably I might go skiing there, who knows?

What am I babbling here? I need to rest.. it's late night o'ready...bueno noche (good night)...

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Oyasumi

Lately, got the chance to try using Linux... I use the live CD one, coz need not to install it into any PC, just access using the live CD... the LInux information will be loaded into RAM and then when it is ready, just login in into the system. Yup, trying to use the GUI (graphic user interface, kan? ingat lupa je nih) one... but thinking of the chance to start from scratch, from zero... but need time and concentration.. but the big prob is got no one to help me out here... but I will explore first according to my capability to understand the computer and IT terms... be it there is somebody to instruct me, I would be glad...

What else for break? Looking for chance to ski... or else skating would be fine... Graduating? Not yet, around the corner but not yet to come... but my mind did blink-blink thinking whehter or not I should pack some stuffs though still have about half a year from now... but hey, I'm lazy :p Maybe this winter would be the best time to visit Malaysians and stay for a night or two coz probably I might be busy when the time to fly back rises soon...

huaaa... need to sleep... chow... nite sayang :D

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Help myself to sleep early during break.... yasumi (holiday in Japanese) always causes me problem going to bed early...

Hari demi hari terasa makin jauh...
Bintik hitam itu bertindih-tindih sudah...
Yang putih bukan kelabu lagi...
Tetapi sudah menjadi hitam...
Diri hanyut tanpa pautan...
Ah ruginya diri ini...

Bila terasa makin jauh...
Sunyi pula menjelmakan diri...
Terasa terasing di bumi sementara ini...
Ya Rabbi, ihdini wahdina...
Syurga bukan keutamaan...
Redha dan ampunMu ya Ilahi itu yang kupohon...
Kerna ketenangan jiwa di kala ini amat diingini...
Biar sunyi namun terisi...
Biar jauh namun tenang bahagia...
Biar sendirian tapi diingati...

Agar esok lebih baik dari hari ini...
Bantulah diri ini ya Rabbi...
Engkaulah tempat pergantungan yang selayaknya...

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Walaupun payah untuk memperbaiki diri, tapi sekurangnya tidak ada rasa putus asa mencuba.... hidup hanya sekali...

This thing is called 243 Ida... an asteroid... if human named Ida looks like this, would you be friend with the person?? It looks ugly right? Yep it is :D

By the way, the little dot at the right of Ida is her moon, named Dactyl... yep, the asteroid has a moon... and anyway, credits to NASA for this picture.. and credits to Wikipedia coz I'm direct linking this pic from the free encyclopedia... yep, lazy to save the picture in different place... okay.. stadi2.. adios amigos mucha lucha gigante hehe..
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Studying for astronomy.. got exam 'bout 2 hours from now... astronomy is fun!

I was listening to Era.fm... yep, listening to Malaysian radio, missing the feeling damn much... Why? Coz through out the day hearing from my housemate's room the sons sung by KRU... what a reminiscence... always remind me of the moments riding my uncle's car, he always puts KRU cassette inside the radio... repeating the same cassette like crazy... u lala... this is the way we jam... ah, how time passed by so fast...

But what can I say, even ERA is playing the old songs from Amy Mastura to Rahmat... and many more... ah, why the music world keeps reminding of the past? AH ah ah... time passes by again... need to force myself reading notes and books for tomorrow's exam.... to myself, till then.... to my love, wait for me!

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Somebody are coming... yeye!

Just flipped through my notes and textbook... ain't know what to revise coz it's math, you know... all the time i do reading the notes, hmmm the same result coz i don't have enough practice... then, spent some time looking reading and review about Aeon Flux.... got no idea about it, it has a game... hmmm thinking again, would that be available for PS2? It looks interesting, omoshiroi desu yo!

Erk, time for relax has gone... need to pray and prepare for exam... it's Probablity guys... the subject is Probablity, how am I going to score this last exam? Pray for me and for myself... ought to be selfish at this time, pray for me and my success... I got to do better and better... I love math, but hell hard for this one... the one and only high level course I'll take for math... don't have strong background for calculus, forgotten already... that's why only able to be average... ah okay2, adios.... pray2 play2 lay2 sleep :p

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Hari ni tak sejuk sangat... 1Celcius, so nice! tanoshikatta desu!

"Truth is always new, therefore timeless," quoted by J. Krishnamurti...

So, why the damn Muslims in all over the world avoid to always live anew with the exact and solid truth they got in their hands? People in Malaysia, my fellow countrymen, ain't you so dumb to wait for a non-Muslim to tell you that truth won't rotten and got old, coz truth is always applicable to anytime anywhere and anywhat, it suits best all the time coz it has the element of timelessness... waha apa aku mengarut nih?

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Another quote from the field of Philosophy, but ain't that prove something? Yup, Muslims today are mostly dumb! :p

You lose the moment you give up...
A racer is a loser if he does even tries to race...

The moment you feel down about trying,
The moment you ain't in high spirit..
That's the moment when you failed...

Dream is only a dream,
far from reaching when you stop trying...
The worst case when you did not even make a start...
Chase for it, coz it'll never chase you...

For each second, it'll be worth when you try...
Life will be meaningful when you try...
At least you have an aim..
Even for a dream that you try...
Trying is the first step to your dream...
Though people always say dream of trying is the first step...
Na aaa, they ain't right...
People who stop and never trying lost at the memont they lose hope...

Hope is still there when you try...
It's all there waiting for you trying...
Like the angels and the beauties waiting for you all these while...
In the case of living for a fraction moment in the universe...
For the sake of living for eternity in the hereafter...
World expands, with or without you...
Dream, try, hope, thank... all come together making life as beautiful as a star....
Like the nearest star closest to our planet, which is the Sun...
You won't be like Sun if you fail to shine at least for yourself...
Coz the happy self which shines spread happiness to the surrounding...
Ain't you wanna be like Mr. Star?
Remember, Sun is the closest star to our planet...
coz Sun is the star in our Solar system...
Be like the Sun, shine for ya dream...
For being like is to be a STAR :)

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Demit, why am I so peotic at this moment? :D

Pening2, just woke up... I don't know, about 2 hours ago really could not stand the sleepiness I was facing, so decided to sleep.... set my alarm, and then when I woke up, still feel lazy and dizzy... then a shock really wake me up at last, what kind of shock? I was looking at the clock and it showed 10.08 o'clock, dame dame, thought I was going to miss my Monday class, coz last week I was so late on my Monday class, I decided not to miss any class this sem (but I did miss once during raya :D)... then the shock made me realized, I was tricked, it's still at night and it's still Sunday, not Monday yet, dame...

I was lucky, yokatta (ah, so good!)..... thanks to ehem2 for waking me up! I just could say much, I can only depend on you :D

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"Da-me" is a Japanese expression for refusing... "da-me" means "takleh".... so, I was thinking that means we can use "da-me" instead of "takleh jadi nih"? hehe :D

pergh, sesudah sekian lama ku berusaha setiap hari menghadap menda ni, dapat gak pecah rekod below 120 sec... but this one is 111 sec, way above my target... coz previously I can only do 126 sec as my best, this one is way more cool... yippie... boleh la grad minesweeper camnih tehehehe.... kasih sayang itu tali, kasih sayang pengikat diri, kasih sayang pada semua, kasih sayang sesama kita, kasih sayang hoooo dunia moga selamat di akhirat sana... ah whatever is the lyric, this Raihan song accompanied me winning 111 sec of minesweeper... haha, aku riyak!

But, what is more cooler is that I renewed all my best time scores for all levels, 5 sec for beginner level, 34 sec for intermediate level, and obviously 111 sec for advanced/expert level... pueh ati, lagu Raihan ni memang beh :D
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A friend of my bro got time score 120 plus, it sparked my spirit to try better than him, now I got 111, way more cool... wahaa, heppi!

Feels like my chest is being compressed... erk, naa it's only because of the weather... right now the temperature is -11 Centigrade, but the feels like is -19 Centigrade... heh, need to wear more layers before going to class... got quiz to score, still need some time to memorize the japanese vocab, it's only the verb, so it won't be too much... this is the only course I enjoyed doing this semester coz this kinda the most easy coz I ever took in my life, what can you say, it's a beginner level class, should be like a kindergarten or primary school level of studies... you need to memorize words, but the most important you also learn the basic grammar, I'm lovin' it! Grammar is so fun, like arabic grammar (which we call "nahu"), I really enjoyed learnin 'em.... even English grammar is fun too!

Japanese is, to me, a language that communicate backwards, coz they speak the objeck first and then the verb... that's not what really attractive about the language, though... but the most catchy element is the indirectness composed in the language... you don't have to speak the whole thing again and again, just one word would suffice... how fun! The inflicted meaning can be indirectly reflected by one word... whether you talk about the future or the present, it doesn't matter, if you are part of the conversation, you should understand the context... fun eh? Fun coz I like indirectness... but still, my most preferred language is Arabic, coz one word can be translated to so many thing, so it can be interpreted in so many ways... no matter how sure you are about the translation of the Holy Quran, you can still dig the gold and silver when you understanding the meaning differently... when you contemplate, you'll find so many meanings encompassed in 'em... that's why Quran is the root of knowledge, coz it's the root of roots, the root of everything as guidance for us, pathetic human beings....

argh, my chest is killin' me... I should wear more layers now... Jaa ne ('til then)!

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The bright warm day is an extraordinary gift for those who experienced extreme cold weather... and snow is damn cold, so it's not a very friendly entity... don't play-play, but do pray-pray

Today is a fun day, we got snow accumulated... making the city and especially the university looked white and fluffy :p The best thing is, it is the first day of December, and exactly on this first day of the last month in this year 2005 we got snow... what a coincidence? Na, betsuni... just a made up, what I mean is, this day officially marks the start of white winter season, yey... it's cold (we say "samui" in Japanese, or "bareed" in Arabic -kalau tak silap la hehe)... though it's cold, but it's the taste of winter, I'm loving it!

Ah, I don't care about putting more weight, as long as my winter will always be fun ("tanoshi" in Japanese, and "sa'eed" in Arabic)... hmmm, trying my best to recall my arabic vocabs...

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Kalau di hemisfera utara sejuk, maka di hemisfera selatan pula? It's obvious kan? While my friends from Australia and NZ spending their time in Malaysia, I'll be staying here in this cold weather... coz next year will be my turn to be back to Malaysia! Can't wait for the time to come!