Help!
---by the Beatles---

Help! I need somebody,
Help! Not just anybody,
Help! You know I need someone,
Help!
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybodys help in any way,
But now these days are gone and Im not so self assured,
Now I find Ive changed my mind Ive opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, Im feeling down,
And I do appreciate you being around,
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Wont you please please help me?
And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze,
But evry now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like Ive never done before.
Help me if you can, Im feeling down,
And I do appreciate you being around,
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Wont you please please help me?
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybodys help in any way,
But now these days are gone and I'm not so self assured,
Now I find Ive changed my mind Ive opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, Im feeling down,
And I do appreciate you being around,
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Wont you please please help me?
Help me. Help me.

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This helps to explain the transition of being an adult... I do think so, coz some day when you get lost, you'll beg for a hand to pull you out of the miserables

Yokatta ne... even the Beatles got into my list... what a song... and what a sound... enjoying it... coz reminds me when hearing one or two of the songs during my high school day... I just couldn't help it... all the classic songs got into me... yattaa! hehe... shukudai-o shimashita, demo watashi wa rasa malas gila :D

Okay la, kena yomu assigned shosetsu... though tomorrow's works are all done, need to prepare for days to come... just couldn't wait to end this month... by the way, happy belated birthday to my brother who is in his final year of secondary school in SBPI Rawang, I wonder what it feels to be the pioneer of a new school? Enjoy your day coz I'm enjoying mine lately... Lately just got attracted with Brother Yusuf Estes's lectures and website... did hear some of his lectures, what a good guy.. a good example for us coz he reverted to be a Muslim about a decade ago, but he is too good even in reciting Arabic sentences... even during his day before Islam, he was really a religious guy, that's why as a Muslim he continues being religious and committed to this Deen al-Haq... but what about you who inherit the Deen because of our ancestors or parents? What do you feel, and what have or will you do in order to pursue life as a good Muslim?

I just can't say much coz even as a young adult, I did a lot of mistakes in my life... but I'm hoping for a better tomorrow... I wish I could keep my whim in a jar and throw it far away into deep sea... Okay, that's it...yomimashou!

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Do I need to volunteer for the university ministry to feed the homeless? I wish I won't miss the day to sign up as one of the volunteers... though it is under my Christian university, let's give it a try? Shall we? shimashou ka?

Hehehe.. less than a minute I posted a posting... now I'm back :D Just a sip or two would be fine.. coz I'm waiting for the rice to be ready... the popia I made yesterday night is all finished... I ate most of 'em... but what can I say, I can't eat or drink in the day, definitely everything is gone... but it's fine, the curry is still more left on the stove... just to wait for the rice...

I'm thinking of today as a wonderful day coz I'm thinking of going back to meet my family this year... definitely after graduation... though my housemate asking without earnest to go back with him to home country during Spring brake in March, I can't say much as I'll be going back for good in June... so, why waste time for Malaysia? I had to spend all the time I got here in Milwaukee, it's damn cold right now but that's what it is to live in Milwaukee...

Welcome to Wisconsin will always remain as a memory in my future, with a condition if I were able to live long life...

Okay, had to stop here... I just thinking of typing something, that's why I do blog for today... I think I'm happy just to type more than a para for today's session... till then, talk to myself again soon... sayonara...
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Shukudai-wo shimasen... dakara, benkyoushimashou!

60s Music..

I just don't know what to say, I'm kinda crazy about some 60s songs... naa actually the songs are all famous whether being played as background music in a movie, or even in advertisement... you know the Lion song right? That's one of the songs I got recently... what a memory (like I used to live in the 60s/70s) :D

Ops okay, got to go.. need to break ma fast... it's Monday and it's been a while not doing fasting... till then, enjoy the music of life :D

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I wonder about living in the 60s, surely hard to get halal foods... hehe foods always be a number one thing to think about hehe...

We need no blink-blink because it originated from Jewish culture, for the oldies to wear Jewelry that's why they call it JEWelry... coz the Jews invented it the blink-blink diamonds and decorations... ask the black artist called Birdman, he appeared on channel VH1 and confirming this fact that the blink-blink term which he introduced into hip hop world has association with the blink-blink culture of the Jewish old people, coz the old Jewish people where blink-blink... even the afro hairstyle which we thought popularized by the black culture was originated from the black culture... eekkkk you are wrong, in your face! The Jewfro (I don't know how to spell it, but they call the term in the program televized by VH1 channel as 'Jufro')... but somehow this big round hairstyle got into the black culture and got famous again into the hip hop culture... I am not kidding, this is what is shown in the program which explains the relationship of hip hop and the Jewish culture... but then some Muslims got pretty crazy about hip hop culture which had made them mad to wear the culture into their lives... too bad, you are immitating the Jews... ain't you feel bad of doing that? Wearing the big pants which way too big from your size and because of that the waist got lowered till you can see the color of the underpants.... do you think it looks cool? That's the style of skaters? African American basketball players or street smarts? Like a supporter of hip hop culture? Too bad, the style wearing a lowered pant is introduced by the Jews... yet you people still proud of showing you big pants got no belt to tie it on your waist... whatever you wanna tell me for an excuse, it's all proven as facts that hip hop popularize Jewish identities, which you shouldn't be mad about and should avoid 'em.... remember the words of our beloved Prophet SAW that whoever copies what other groups identities or actions, you are one of 'em.... if you inherit Muslim tradition and culture, you should be proudly called as Muslim :) hallelujah, praise (ye) the Lord (the Almighty God)...

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To be like hip hop is to be like Jews... be careful from now on...

Does anyone have bolt to screw my head? I'm having headache... can't do anything much, even a capsule of drug (or you'd prefer call medicine) could do nothing, coz I just ate one... another one? Naa I just hate medicine...

Tomorrow we'll go to Chicago to celebrate Eid al-Adha... yesterday just got back from Rockford, visiting a Malaysian family over there... And now tomorrow need to go out early morning to catch up the Eid prayer... and this weekend will probably have to spend a night in Gurnee for an open house... I told Paeh's housemates to pick him up at the airport coz feel tired to travel... and especially to drive for people... Need to take some rest before jumping into another new semester... this will be my last semester... can't wait can't wait... haha..

Owh, just now went up to Abang Man's kitchen, he was cooking nasi impit and rendang, another can't wait thing to do... though I'm having headache, the rendang menu would be my supper or most probably be my breakfast tomorrow :D bestnya beraya... even though over the sea in different continent, the menu for raya is no big difference... need to look for curry puff and some kuih tomorrow after the prayer... slurpp...

I'll call back home to wish hari raya, hopefully there are somebody at home... hi mom and dad, eid mubarak... see ya all this year...

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I'm out, my head is chillin'...

Betul2 turning down my appetite la... lukisan naruto buruk... tak best betul... kalau katun lukisan dia jadi buruk ni kureng la... tambah plak jalan cerita pun tak berapa.... ala nape kualiti makin jatuh ni? Can't say much, but is this a new year version of the anime? Shoot... what a downgrade...

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Potong betul la bila lukisan katun jadi buruk... I just hate bad drawing...

Badminton, what a game.. boring eh? Yup, kinda boring coz this break got nothing big... spent time waiting for new year's midnight in chicago.. shouting without brain but actually just counting, ain't shouting much... only that was my first time doing that kinda thing... back in malaysia, any event like that new year or whatsoever, just stay at home feeling wasted... coz too lazy to join the group inviting people to go home... yep, that's me... ain't doing much work for the Deen coz I'm lazy... lazy to get involved with people who always make me feel sick... looking over myself first... yep, selfish, but what do I care... only that why did I drive myself and 4 friends of mine for the new year's celebration... what actually happened to me? I'm changed? Maybe... but I just wanna see the feel... but what can I say, when I was there hearing the music and observing some of the crowd shaking legs and dancing, I feel the urge to shake and shake haha strange feeling... but that kinda urge been discussed in my Philosophy class of Existentialism... people got excited to entertainment but then actually got nothing... but the feel was there... even if you do not shake your bod, you'll at least tap ya hand...

Naa I'm exaggerating here... What got into me, I ain't shake anything.. just feel the excitement of music for the first time, which I actually hate... coz I hate to be in any crowd and hate to go to any concert... even a nasheed concert, it's too much for me... I just hate looking at people acting dumb and brainless... but ya know, observing kinda fun too... coz you can see and spot differences in human behaviors... some people shout with joy and some people just keep quiet while waiting.. some people just like to hold a mug of beer and chatting... but people like you, what will you do? Do you observe people? Or do you look at people and then immitate their weird and stupid products?

Why do you celebrate new year... it's nothing, you should know that.. coz you never appreciate a thing... not even worry about those in needs and those people who suffer because of war or difficulties during post-period of natural disaster.. what do people in Pakistan and Indonesia actually do?

I can say much... but what do you feel when Arial Sharon got stroke? Who knows what will happen to him, but some people might laugh at him saying there you go, it's your turn now... but what do people know about spreading the light of hidayah not only to fellow Muslimin but also to ignorant and stubborn kuffaar... regardless of whether they are Jews or Westerners or whatsoever... they are humans too... why be like pathetic Muslims closing the chance for those kind of people to accept hidayah? Will you be the one to judge that those Jews and Christians would never open their heart for Islam? Who do you think you are? That's what always happen, why do be like that? We only need to be aware of their possible threats to us, but we have no reason to violate their rights as a normal human beings... think people think... this new year could be a new starting point for each and everyone of us... just be true to yourself... be a normal human who has heart and who opens up to input and spread output with confidence...

My bad... if there is mistake, that all from the weakness of my heart... and the good are all from the God... don't be like kuffaar... saying why should you apologize when you end your speech? Coz they say if we apologize, you are making a less firm stand because you should be firm and stand still with your thoughts... but we admit that the weakness of the heart and as human beings we ain't free from making mistake... what else we can say? We ain't perfect creatures...

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This new year just a new year... what else could it be? It's a marker of time passes by... if you don't cut it, it'll cut you... cut your throat and leave you dead... coz time is like sword... this saying is always in my mind coz it was written by my homeroom teacher which says "Al-waqtu ka as-Saif, in lam taqto'uhu, yaqto'uka" -time is like a sword, if you don't cut it, it'll cut you...hmmm penanda waktu di bahagian bawah blog ni dah tulis tinggal 4 bulan 3 minggu je lagi aku tinggal di rumah ni... lepas tu aku akan beransur entah ke mana pula? Kembali kepada yang tersayang?