Thursday, March 04, 2010

Easily get mad. What I do these days will never be perfect. If others do what I did, I said nothing, and the rest will say "good job" or "sounds good." What more can I say? Everyone has heart, but we are asked no to be touched. Maybe that's why our hearts are dying, or maybe that's why their hearts are already dead?

When someone made her mother to suffer, she can simply say "mom, don't be." As simple as that. I guess, nowadays people can just do whatever they want, but never consider how their actions will impact others. Everyday I try to tell myself that people are all selfish. But, I am also selfish. Easily get mad. That makes me normal(?). Well, how can a father able to hold his anger and frustration buried deep inside his heart against what people did wrong to him, but why can't I? How big the father's heart? Can I do that as well? Accept whatever you do to me? Why can't I?

Easily get mad. To other drivers, bosses, colleagues in office, fellow countrymen, family members, pretty much everyone even myself. That's why I think what was said by a policeman is trillion percent true, we need to rethink and re-engineer our social system. Whose fault will that be? All is because we claim that we wanna be free to do what we want, but carved somewhere at a memorial stating "FREEDOM is not free."

Please, I need to tell this to myself at all time. Think before I act. I am now a happy man virtually.

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Guess what, Japanese are depressed. They live in a limited space, in a highly dense community. But why they can still tolerate externally? While we fortunately live in a less density community, but failed to tolerate. Easily get mad. Can't even stand a non-stop cry baby. I need re-engineer my emotion and intelligence first, before I want to re-engineer the system. Cleanse my heart, and if God wills the system can also be fixed. I will continue to lay low, while keeping my heart and eyes open to see what others do time to time. RIP!