Call against blockade on Gaza. We all support the call. No matter how silent our voices may be, we support the move. No matter from which party or which country the call may come from, we give our full support.

Some call for rethinking. We say go ahead. Some say we will never stop. We agree. But if anyone call for a halt, we say not an option. We are not heroes, but we do care. We are not powerful, but we push forward. Not matter what, unjustice to the Gaza people need to stop.

On top of all the call we make, we shall relook at ourselves. The surrounding around us, have we done enough for our people? Why aren't we make any call for our own people? If we can't guarantee justice for our own "family" and "neighbors," can we say we fight for justice for the World?

Issues like poverty, hunger, violence, hatred, crime and all sort of social ills will hunt us no matter where we are and where we go. Being muslims, it is our responsible to care about all these ills in our families, communities, nations and around the globe. If we are okay with all these bad events taking place surrounding us, it is a sign that we have the greatest blindness, blind senses due to sick/dead hearts.

We don't close eyes on what's happening close to us, but let wide open another eyes on what is happening far far away from our soil. To feed our families is also a struggle, unless we have more than enough. To give alms to people is also a struggle, unless our left hands know nothing what our right hands do. To do good to our parents is also a struggle; one is because we do not live with them under the same roof anymore, thus we do not see them everyday while money alone is nothing comparable to their sacrifice to us since the minute we were born to this World.

Need to remind myself day to day, life is a struggle no matter for what cause it may be.

__________________

Have we feed our hearts enough with fertilizers? What kind of fertilizers we give to our body, mind and soul everyday?

I am sitting alone in office, all went out for lunch. Already close to mid-year. Jihah is about to turn 2, who now can better understand instructions and also able to tell what she wants. Better, she can even sing "nenek² si bongkok tiga" and "twinkle² little star." Shifaa can now sit and able to roll over. More, she can now get angry if things were taken from her hands, or even growl when she is not fed and definitely asking for more.

What have I learned in the past 5 months? Have I completed my duties? I'm struggling as an employee, as a son, as a father, as a husband. That's life. Something that is very hard for young people to understand. Mom always asks why young generations these days very reluctant to face hardship. I can only hope my younger siblings can comprehend this, life is not easy. We need to steer everyday, carefully and to look ahead.

But, I don't get it, why some people say they refuse to look back? I think we need to look back, so that when we look forward, we know several things that we need to avoid. When you are sorry, is it that simple you just say sorry but not acknowledging that you are at fault? That's why we need to look back, to look at what we've done and what we can improve for the future.

Well, easy said than done. Logic alone may not be enough to some. Emotion is another factor that controls you. But, if you let emotion alone to lead you, you may not see things clearly. I guess, your steps explain your priority. Your priority is definitely what you prioritized. So, if family is greater than work, that's what you decide. Even, to some people, offspring is not in their list, what they care most is only their spouses, so let others to take care of their kids. Sad.

Marriage? Is not just 2 souls anymore. It is part of nation building. Many failed to see it that way? Young generations? Take things easy as what they want. Hard truth is hard to swallow when what these 2 souls want is different from what their parents want, or what their community want. This is what I have been thinking, how can kids easily forget the sacrifice of their fathers and mothers? We ask the parents to submit to their children? So, the world is close to its end, when the young ones become the masters.

Even those who claim possessing good understanding of the religion failed to comprehend this. They say they learned the religion way better than their parents. So, their parents are supposed to submit, not them. That simple? Just because you went to better school, or higher level of education, parents have no more power to give orders. Sad.

I'm looking at my 2 kids everyday. What will they be? What kinds of test will be prepared for me and wife? I submit my case to Allah. HE decides, I will play the game at my best.

________________________

Your world is upside down when you put your parents under your 2 feet. Heaven is up there. So, tell me where your mom and pop should be placed? You better comprehend this: "your heaven is under your mom's feet."