thank God, alhamdu liLLAH... kelas habis awal hari ni... what a relief for a lazy guy during cold winter... like always forgot to bring my glove, where the hell you are you black strechy gloves? I got to walk in the chill of winter, it was only 4 below 0 centigrade but damn was so cold... ingatkan boleh la tahan, but yokatta coz my nose stopped runny during cold weather... bila masuk umah or building mula la buat hal balik... for the last time I like winter weather coz runny nose can be healed just by going outside when you got one... but I was breathless in class coz inhaling was blocked, exhaling through congested nose? aahaa buang tebiat la kalau buat camtu... the towel I brought from home plak sakit ati berabuk bila simpan dalam poket... gi toilet tisu damn sikit punya keras... so, I was depending on my dusty and recycle towel (I mean tissue here, for you Malaysians who do not know what towel means here in this context, or you can say paper towel).... and I shouldn't use toilet pasal sini in America they call restroom... but, a relief is worth everything, class finished earlier than usual coz materials covered are almost 95 percent, next week will be my final class in this Master course... can't believe, I'm nearly done with my Master course, but I'm so finished... I mean no more economic research, too lazy reading and reading, I need life...

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I wonder if my brother could really make it to visit me next year for my graduation.. hmmm... or better tell mom to keep the money for doing Hajj?

A week from now, the deadline... seriously, I need to start working on my reports.... this is the last sem I'll do econ, and next sem I'm not taking anymore econ... weird huh? I just hate to do economic research every semester, just because I wanna take a break from doing Statistics, not because I hate Econometrics... Econometrics should be my blood, but I'm sucking it slowly... both reports are dealing with economy... one with Mexican economy and the other one is an econometric research on American economy, I tried looking for information on Malaysian economy, but sigh they only provide annual data, really hard to grab monthly or at least quarterly data... too bad, I got no choice, time is limited so the best choice is doing American economy, which I admit that I'm really left behind about understanding the only big economy in this damn world because American economy is too big, yep to me it's too big to be cramped all the single details into my mind... but hey, lucky me for having this chance to learn the ideal... yep, Economics is nothing more than learning about the ideal world.... those who are good enough able to translate and apply the ideals to the real world.... what the heck am I typing here? I need to go to class, mann... I hate going to class after maghrib, especially during winter... hope my nose won't cause me anymore problem to breathe... I need the air pumped into my chest... Ah, stop it! be it I'm lazy, be it I'm clumsy, be it I'm slow, I still need to go to class! Go go lazy me!!

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Hey people out there, we got flurry this morning!!! Ain't ya guys jealous? But what can I say, this might be my last winter... I really enjoy winter coz every year I can get sick of flu and fever :D ashfee ya Rabb! :)

A week from today,everything will be due... coz next week will be ma last week of study for Fall Semester 2005... but still I could not do my report... one big prob is that I got 2 research reports due at the same day but only one I managed to continue working on it... the other one, hmmm feel kinda lazy, but I think I'll manage to finish it on time... time passed by but the spirit is still there... what I am talking about, I need a cup of hot water to kill the germ residing in my throat... argh! December hasn't yet realized but why am I having this cough right now? Oh God, please forgive me... please heal my throat, I wanna go to class in a good shape with a relief for having a healthy body and mind....

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BismiLLAH... ALLAHumma ashfee

The snow has started falling again... and this marked the start of a new winter for me... that means my life here is going to end, and my foot will freeze for the last time in my winter here... I'll be flying off back when the time comes... but right now, I'll enjoy winter no matter how fun the mucus runs out of my nose... no matter how chill it'll be, this is winter and this will be part of my journey in life.... maybe some day I'll get a chance to live a in a very warm place instead of very chilly place like the city of Milwaukee... I did feel the breeze of winter in Ireland and UK, and even in Europe, it was nothing tehehe people over there chill out okay? I'm saying Milwaukee is damn cold like you think you can peel your ears if you forgot to wear something to cover your ears.... seriously, it is damn cold that makes you hate to see the snow, but not for me, I like the snow... it reminds me of how precious is my hometown back at home in my homecountry, how people in my hometown should appreciate having such warm weather which allows 'em to do so many things, but what can you say they always got nothing much to do, except "lepaking" in front big shopping complexes, or malls.... that shows how ignorant about how cold is other places during winter time and how people with four seasons appreciate warm weather....

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I just realized people always say "bull zai" is actually "bull's eye!" which means voilla you got it! haha for so many years I thought I was an expression like voila, which was also one expression which I really learn how to spell it last academic year in the spring semester... I thought it was walla but hey it has its own spelling which is "voila"... the same meaning like "bull's eye!" it means the same....

When you sit down doing Math, you'll think how slow you are in writing down the calculations. Especially when you are not Master in the basic of Calculus (which most of us might forgot without proper practice from time to time), then you'll look back for you Calculus textbook. What a relief you found it, but damn yourself for still could not figuring out the problem. Then you'll search on the net, tada the cheat sheet... but if you are unlucky like me, you'll sit back and say, "THAT'S IT!!" not because you could not figure it out but it's because your mind blanked.

Now you know how important to do it ahead of time, tehehe... but why do you like Math while people hate to do anymore Math... even a scorer in high school hates to take Math, but you put yourself in a higher level Math class... then you'll say, "I'M DOING IT AS PART OF MY MAJOR." Waha, take that... so, it's part of your major... but then your are wasting your time a lot, recently... what should you say, next?

Even if I don't have talent in numbers, but I might try my another capability in languages, in words.... could I? Cehh, no more excuses... life is what it is now, but only that you do something today to change ya tomorrow... like people always say in drama or movie, "what had happened yesterday let it gone, and still you can change your future." <--- influenced by nihon-no-dorama... dorama-no-daimoku wa koi ga shitai.... :D

I was viewing my brother's pictures, he's different right now... tend to be the independent guy, who might some day end up with lots of troubles, but he'll taste life more than his older bro... that'll be the truth since he'd held by court and nearly got into jail... but his bro? His bro only came to bail him out and cursing the court, yep the magistrate did not speak for the laws, the damn magistrate sucking money from our savings by speaking for his/her damn self... that's why I cursed the policeman with foul mouth, damn that old man, talking like we the listeners were having sound-tra....

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Erk, I should stop talking about the past, I should change the future! I LOVE MY FAMILY!

2 Exams...
2 Quizzes...
1 Oral Exam...

This can be the worst week ever for this semester... time will pass... can't wait to see the above to become my past...


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Study la Moeh wei!!

Dalam perkataan Istiqomah itu ada huruf qof alif dan mim...
Jadilah ia perkataan qooma iaitu berdiri...
Untuk berisitiqamah bukan hanya sambil lewa...
Tapi kita kena dirikan sendiri atau kata lain kita sendiri melakukannya...
Oleh sebab itu, QUM (Dirikanlah)...

Isti'daad itu maksudnya persiapan...
Dalamnya ada huruf dal 'ain dan alif...
Jadilah ia du'aa' iaitu doa dalam Bahasa Melayunya...
Tidak lengkap persiapan diri sahaja tanpa doa...

Perkataan Qolbun itu maksudnya hati...
Huruf qof ba dan lam itu ada dalam kalimah qalbun...
Jadilah ia perkataan Qobla yang bermaksud sebelum...
Sebelum yang lainnya, hatilah satu elemen yang awal sekali perlu diperbetulkan...
Kalau tidak dilakukan qobla (sebelum) yang lainnya, amalan akan jadi rosak...
Rosak lalu rugilah...

Ibadah pula maksudnya perhambaan...
Dalamnya ada huruf ba 'ain dan dal...
Jadilah pula ba'da yang maknanya ialah selepas...
Ibadah itu menyusul ba'da (selepas) hati menyatakan syahadah...
Kalau ibadah itu bukan selepas pengakuan ketuhanan Yang Esa, rugilah...
Begitulah sedekahnya manusia yang tiada nur iman di hatinya...
Tiada dikira ianya sebagai satu ibadah (perhambaan), hanyalah satu kerja yang baik...

Dalam Mujaadalah (perdebatan/perbalahan) itu ada dal jim dan lam...
Kalau tidak hati-hati dalam berdebat boleh jadi dajjaal...
Dajjaal maksudnya pembohong...
Orang yang berdebat ada yang sanggup berbohong untuk menang...
Kerna itu, berdebatlah atas nama keadilan...
Bukan atas nama kedajalan yang merosakkan...

Bagaimana pula solaat?
Apakah sebenarnya makna solaat itu?
Apakah solat dan selawat itu sama?
Hmmm... siapa tahu makna sebenar solat?
Adakah sembahyang itu benar-benar menterjemah perkataan solaat?
Ada yang kata jangan pakai perkataan sembahyang...
Kerana sembahyang itu digunapakai untuk penyembahan bagi penganut Buddha dan Hindu...
Lalu diadaptasikan oleh Bahasa Melayu yang kuat menceduk...
Kerna kalau disebut solaat tak pasti fahamkah anda akan maknanya?
Sebab kalau disebut "Solli 'ala Muhammad" bukankah sama seperti "Solli kama ro-aitumuuni usolli"
Solatlah... apakah sebenarnya simbolik amalan solaat itu?
Hanya satu gerakan badan dan disusuli dengan beberapa bacaan...?
Terkumat-kamit dari anak kecil hingga ke usia tua...
Tapi apa maksud solaat?
CAN ANYONE TELL ME?

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Learn Arabic, then! Yep... you can play with language in your crazy mind...
Obviously don't take the above as a serious scholarly writing, think and do what you think right...

My housemates are watching Rome right now. But, I think I'll just skip and off to bed. Can't say much though I like watching the series too, but still feeling a bit tired of travelling for Eid the whole day of Saturday. So, to all people with Iman and Islam in their hearts and souls, Happy Eid... Eid Mubaarak, kullu 'aam wa entum bikheir... I'm off...

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To my family in Malaysia, hope to celebrate next year's Eid al-Fitr with all of ya... to NM, take care of ya self, okay? Maaf zahir batin from the far faraway land of bushes and farms