Wednesday, August 30, 2006

I am addicted to Sudoku, though I'm still beginner, or should I say I'm already intermediate, I wish I could by myself a book of Sudoku so I can make my head spinning around in the KTM Komuter when I commute back to Shah Alam. Everyday sitting on the train was like a waste of time. Sometimes, I hate to see young people were so heartless for not giving their seats to elderly ones. I even told a young lady to show an old woman to an empty seat, she was like "aaa, nak panggil makcik tu?" what the hell... she's not anyone else and she's even a Muslim like us too, only that she's older, that's it. Ah, people these days are 'so Malaysian.'

I'm not writing this entry to talk about how Malaysian we should be, and definitely this is not about how to be merdeka person. I am hoping that some day we could be more Muslim in a sense that others will respect the teachings of Islam. I am wearing beard not because I want to be proud as Muslim and not because I want to make myself look older, just because. What are talking about? Nothing.

One day, when I was sitting in front of my not-so-favorite PC, I recalled a very sweet memory of travelling with my best buddy to Niagara Falls. Not because the journey was far and challenging, it was sweet to remember of how happy we were to find the mosque. Without a doubt, we parked the car and pray jama.' We then continued our journey to DC. I think everything was sweet memory. We agreed the travel was a big success in a sense that we both felt very satisfied with the plan and timing. At the beginning, everything was like messed up, as we were forced to cancel the booking after we realized that we couldn't reach Niagara Falls City by daytime, but having found the mosque was the sweetest one for me. Again, what are we talking about?

I think I need to find Sudoku. She said she likes crosswords and has intention to learn playing Sudoku, but I said I love Sudoku as my secondary way of life hohoho...

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Ooo she is calling... bye

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

The best thing to happen in your first week of working life is there is a dead body falling from 8 floors above. Yes, from 19th floor and suddenly "bum", the body stopped by the platform on the 11th floor. The good thing is, the 11th floor is where my department is situated. So wrong. Some of Chinese people in my dept. made a rather serious joke that we need to pray for the hungry ghost since this month according to the Chinese calander is the month where the door between hell and real world is opened. So, it's hungry ghost month, basically.

What's more interesting is that, I heard a colleague who got a speculated idea of falling from 19th floor to the 11th floor made it sounds like 911, for him playing around with the number saying "19-11" or "11-19"... soon, he bought the number, you know what number... If he wins, hopefully he won't hohoho...

So, what's more can be really interesting about your first week of working life?

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Working is tiring, but having an informative work is more than tiring... makes life more educational... my job is very meaningful to my personal development... sorry to all beloved people, I might be busy for these few days, trying to adapt with working world... I'll do my best to attend to all your requests once I got used with my office life, locked up on the 11th floor with English environment, what the...

Saturday, August 12, 2006

What a tiring life. That's all I can say about my life lately. I just couldn't find a word to describe about my life coz I'm no good at language, hohoho. To all little toddlers, there is no Christmas, until the end of this year, coz we should wait another Narnia moment to say that Christmas is back. Heh, what the heck am I writing about Christmas. This morning, went to the first wedding of my Hira' friends. At last, after missing couple of walimah, this is the first one. Yeah yeah, you could not say everything is perfect, there is always words uneasy to be heard of coming from no where. Whose mouths? Who knows... but, everything was okay, nothing is not bad. But, sorry to the couple, couldn't say goodbye while you guys were busy cutting the cake, coz feeling lost for a second not knowing where to stand and what to do. So, we left for Sunway Pyramid. Probably, a girl and me are good enough to be the ones from KISAS, probably no one actually got invited.

I feel like a very small world, when everybody say hello to me while I couldn't really recall their names, except those who really close to me. Haiya, need to refresh my memory. Even for tomorrow's wedding in Seremban, I don't feel like going, since it'll take some distance to travel. We'll see how my mood will be during the morning tomorrow. See, another wedding. So tired of going, foods is always main attraction, but feeling tired is very inevitable. Probably, a cup of Tongkat Ali by AliCafe should work as energy booster, remember kids it's AliCafe, not Ali Kafir ha, as taught to me by my 'lil bro. Why life is so full with activities back in M'sia. That's why you should feel very grateful when you can relax back in the States, though people shouting 'We hate America.' Remember, hate the people on the top, not the people, you should pity them since they are not the ones guilty. They do hold posts protesting like you all, they are normal people like you all, just ordinaries.

Sometimes, I don't feel like saying amin to anyone's prayer blaming the Americans. You should go into the countries, not by looking from the outside. I you hate a house, hate the house, not the people. Not because I disagree with what you are saying. Only that, sometimes you need to look at things properly. Ah, I don't know why, I just could not accept that people hate America so much, as if all Americans are bad people. Likewise, people in America think Lebanese are terrorists, while they should not put a mark on the whole Lebanon community. Can a child or an infant be a terrorist? How could they let people with no heart killed by shooting at small kids, weak adults, and cute little todlers? I mean, where is the rights of the human greatly shouted in the American land? What's the meaning of all that loud shout while you could not really do what you say? Yes, news from the media is never 100 percent true. One-sided news is always being broadcasted. If you read news in Malaysia, they'll blame everything to the Western world, while news in the West will always blame those in the East to be wrong ones. So, who will win in the end? No final words would come out from any meeting, whether by the OIC or by the UN. One side will say the plan is lopsided, the other one will say it is good enough. So, nothing could be achieved when there is disagreement.

The best way to think is, not to just holding posts and protesting. A preachers had said in a mosque where I prayed with some friends of mine, the enemies are afraid when Muslims pray Subuh prayer in a congregation as big as during Jumuah Namaz (Jumuah Prayer). When will that could happen? Seek the answer in yourself. If that is a sign of victory, who should work for it? This generation or next generation? Even if the Imam cries during prayer, how come only very small quantity of the makmums cry? I myself could not cry... feeling so bad of myself remembering how the Imam at Marquette Univ. made me cried praying for the Iraqis during the beginning of the war in 2003. How black is my heart today? How black is your heart?

Remembering the days I used to call myself using the word 'ana' which had lost from my identity. I can only refer to myself by the word 'saya' feeling much comfortable instead of using 'ana.' But, that's just words. I should stop here. The present I is who I am today. I do what I think right and fine, without thinking what is better in your eyes, you are no God except He Almighty.

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Lead me ya Ilaahi... may all wars stop with the shower of Your Rahmah... let us pray for all the people in the countries of war... let them sleep in peace, and play with smiles... regardless of what religion people in the world believe in, may all of them find the way to tranquilty of life.. the right path, which is the straight path to Heaven... Amiin ya Rabb... we the people should be the baiyinah not the destroyer of hope... aight?

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Conditional offer letter, alhamdu liLLAH. But, still waiting for the result of my medical check up, which I had done the same day I picked up the conditional offer letter. It is conditional because the offer depends on the medical check up. I believe the doctor is a very nice guy, I hope he believes me for saying no to both his questions, neither had I been hospitalized nor been warded. It is the truth, I told him the truth. Whether or not I have to worry about the medical test is up to me, but people should tell me shinpai-shinai, aight?

So, today like days before, I am still at home, freely to decide to wake early or late, but today I decided to okiru (wake up) early, thinking of finishing the 2000 pieces puzzle which I had started doing since last week. At the same time I was asked to drive back my bro-in-law's car. I am thinking of going somewhere with the car key in hand, ho ho ho. But, first thing first, I need to drive my sister to a clinic, coz she has about a month to deliver her 2nd baby. Don't know what is the sex of the baby, she didn't say anything about it. Who cares, aight? What matters is that they say the birthdate will be about the same date of mine. I don't care if it falls on the same day, but it is in the same month, like I care :p What I know is there will be another small child in this house, whether I will shout like crazy or I will hug with love, that depends on how good the baby is haha... What I did for the past a month plus is just helping around and shout at the kids, sometimes couldn't stand their naughtiness, haiya...

This morning, when I drove back home, I feel like I wanna kick one female driver. Her car was coming out from the juction, but she only looked on her right, while I was going into the juction from her right. Luckily, she realized I was there cruizing to the juction, haiya... I don't care whether you are a makcik or a kakak whom I know, I will definitely curse you and shout at you if you drive carelessly. I'm sorry, I won't curse, coz I know it is bad for my health. I will definitely be mad. Stop before the white line and look left and right, that is very important when you are not experienced enough with that big juction. You have to admit, the road construction was bad, that's why the juction is really big, so you have to think ahead. Don't just jump into conclusion that you can slowly drive through, I won't hit you coz I saw you from the beginning, what I worry the most if you hit me, I will kick you out of your car to the ground. I really couldn't stand how stupid some people are when they drive. Hmmmm, maybe I am stupid too coz I do drive, but I think ahead whether or not I am familiar with the place.

Ah, who cares. Hope silly drivers die fast! That's my pray for them. Good drivers, I can only say just be careful with silly drivers. One more thing, slow drivers, use left lane coz this is Malaysia, not U.S.A. and the road is not your mom or dad's possession. No matter you are the High Judge in the Shah Alam Court, use left lane if you want to drive slow. Don't push me to use left lane just to pass you sluggish car. Owh, not to forget, those who come from outside Shah Alam, do learn how to use round-a-bouts. If I know you had live in Shah Alam for more than 6 months and still lack of experience with round-a-bouts, I hope you can avoid driving in Shah Alam, or at least don't block my way. Please, I am asking with politeness, learn how and do use signal. Lastly, when you signaled, quickly move ahead of me, I hate drivers with slow action, coz I respect people who ask permission by using signal, so hurry up and don't be like snails. Sometimes, when you try to be polite with other drivers, they move really slow, makes you feel annoyed. I know some people might doubt, that's because they think all Malaysian drivers are selfish. If you can respect others, you should think, others can respect you too.

Okay, that's enough babbling for today. I need to get outta here. I am going to drive shortly, so people with lack experience on driving around round-a-bouts, stop driving, okay?!

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If the above can be considered as a joke, I will be the one who will laugh to death hehe... hmmm, sarcasm is the best medicine.. I should stop critisizing coz I am going to work with the government soon, inshALLAH!