Monday, June 26, 2006

Read my friend's blog. He has itchy eyes too, is it because of the weather change? Or, probably it is hotter nowadays. Made me recall of how 'dirty' the mosque is with some people smoking during the lecture of Friday prayer. This is modern Malaysia, or should I say this is Shah Alam now. Even my brother smokes, though he told my mom he is quitting. What should we care about smokers, they kill others by polluting the air, they don't even care about how to love the nature, how could they claim they love their family and friends?

Haiya, the baby is crying. This is my life today, helping my mom babysitting some kids, including my niece. Same old same old, doing the same job when I stay at home. Yesterday, I was filling up online from on Shell website, then black screen and restart, feeling like I wanna shout that night. I don't remember if I did curse. But, I need to revisit the website today.

I know, there is a lot of problems faced in Malaysia, compared to living in the States. I think, everything is caused by daily meetings with lots of people, not like in the States you can live even without meeting so many people. No one really cares whether you take your bath or cut your hair or even do the laundry. What they care is you, you are who you are. But, here in Malaysia, even when you drive, some motorbikers care nothing about the rules, which is why you might see a motorbiker rides wrong way. Interestingly, there is a lady without proper sense went wrong way with her car, in the middle of Shah Alam city center. What the....? I kept staring at the car, and I don't know what else should I say to that person, are you crazy? You are driving a car, not motorcycle... come on... there should be a limit in everything we do...

That is why a friend of mine in the other part of Peninsular of Malaysia is complaining about stuffs. We even feel uneasy to step into a restroom with wet floor. This is why I sometimes could not laugh anymore when knowing even a person from urban area in Malaysia spilt too much water in the restroom in the States. Even step on the toilet bowl, owh come on, you ain't small kid anymore... stop it!

I don't know, even some people who went to the outside world beyond Malaysian 'tempurung' could not think properly of how to manage their minds. Last 2 years, I kept blaming the system in Malaysia as I was given the opportunity to see the world in the West, far more West than you people who saw the land of Stonehenge or Versailles. I went futher West, to the other part of the world, which took me a day of travel by plane to be back to Malaysia. It is a different world, way different, that makes people in the East hate them so much. But, as Muslim we could see what is good and what is not, so we could paint the same values in our lives. If you drive in Malaysia, stop sign is just like a poster of advertisement. But, in foreign world, stop sign tells you to stop. Who comes to the junction first will own the right to go first. But, in Malaysia who cares, even I myself is forced to be selfish. No wonder there is a survey by Reader's Digest had openly claim Malaysian Kuala Lumpur as 3rd in the list of rude cities. The survey had made the minister to shout back, and even on a front page of local newspaper claims "Rude! Not us," something like that, which I just could laugh silently inside my heart. I just don't get it, hmmm probably they still couldn't see the 'tempurung' they had made for themselves.

I hope, I don't feel trapped under the 'tempurung' for hearing my friend being stuck in his world. So, tomorrow will be the day to visit my homeroom teacher. It has been a while, not showing my round face to my 'cikgu' :D Probably, one of the best thing to do in Malaysia is visitting people. This weekend will tbe the time to go back to my mom's village, the place where I was born. The place where I took a serious journey 3 and half years ago before getting on the plane. 'Kono-mae' (that time), I feel emotional thinking about how not green is the land of Pahang, but I don't know what will be my feeling after this.

Ah, I got nothing to do, so I complain a lot. I should look for something to do, even to babysit is fun, better than having nothing to do. Need to do some maintenance on the PC at home, and probably doing some upgrade to the older PC. There you go, got many things to do. Bank, application, work... and what about getting... I better get up... adios amigos!

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Now I know how hard to ride a bike with clutch. This is life, what we call life in Malaysia! It's hectic and feeling alive! That's why we got lots of complain.... human....

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Alhamdu liLLAH, just got back from Racine. It has been a very tiring day. Waking up early morning not only for World Cup matches, as there was a BBQ party held at Abang Wan's place. Been busy BBQing the chicken and eat and eat and drink and drink, but without burps.

But, the night ended so fast when the 3 of us, me, Paeh and Abang Man, decided to leave for Milwaukee. Saw tears in one of the Malaysians, maybe this very close bond among us means a lot to that person. I do feel the same, but it only came to me in the car, thinking of how lucky I am to be sent in this land, especially to Milwaukee for giving me the chance to meet my 2nd cousin and his family, whom I never know exist here in the States. What a small world. Yes, I do feel a bit sad looking around the house, open and close the fridge, and soon step out from the house. No matter how mad I was to little Danny for shouting at me, I already missed his rudeness coz he is not as active as yesterday, due to the fever he got since last night. I wish to be back, so I can continue seeing Danny, Nadia and their parents. They are my family here in the States. I'd received more than what I'd wished for.

Thanks to Kak Nana and Abang Fikri to for hospitality in Gurnee. I just don't have enough words to express how grateful I am to all of them.

But, in the end, I have to leave. I'll to my best to remember every single person, though I don't really have good memories nowadays, probably did lots of sin to God and to myself. Praise to the AlMighty God for giving me this opportunity to breathe here, and set my feet on this soil, called America. I keep thinking, why do people outside America have negative view about this land? How unlucky! Even my mom knows :)

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I love Milwaukee :D But, what can I say, my love is in Shah Alam :p