Tuesday, May 08, 2007

I'm still facing the PC, tho it should be my rest time. Shoot, tomorrow got discussion on oil fund, i just don't like all this issue about money. Before, i was asked to study about carry trade, again it's financial stuff. Mann..

I can't really read through all those econ papers, I hate reading academic papers, coz the work I do allows me very little window to shout. I mean, for the people, we try to work our best, but then we don't have the power to even let our voice out of 4-wall discussion room. It's reality.

If I were to be a boss, will I allow such independence in voice and action to my employees? That's a question. But, in term of phase in development, we are rated as "developing", but to me, we should be stamped as "stagnant," as we are not moving anywhere to be frank.

All this while, when people call for the 2nd engine after manufacturing and production, we still want to put more and more physical development. The second engine of services is way lagging behind others. Say, you got box to deposit your complaints, but what really translates into result is almost zero per cent.

I had to ask my uncle, who works in TM, to speed up the transfer process of my home line and sluggish streamyx connection. Just because my uncle is high ranked in the organization, they respond to the request quickly. While I was reading the Wall Street Journal in office yesterday, I read TM recorded increase in profits. But, why? Simple explaination, they got no real competition, very unhealthy environment, which makes them feel happy to gain more but doesn't care about improving services. Like I mentioned earlier, the 2nd engine has yet to start. Again, why? Coz no energy/oil being poured into the engine.

Ya ya, I'm complaining here. My words are far from my actions too, but at least I know this is a benchmark which I should try to avoid. I don't want to eat free money. Even though I'm paid badly to read, I'll do reading. I thought earlier, my work really sucks. I hate my work, but today, I'm telling myself, I should love my work, and bit by bit I'm loving my job. Not because I'm the only male officer of the same rank in my section, it's just because I am able to learn and improve myself on a lot of things. I learn to talk, to write, to read, to think, and even to celebrate people. Luckily, all the akak in my section are so nice, they teach me how to be a happy worker. I'm still learning.

No work is as easy as shaking your legs. Teaching is a good profession, but being reader is not a bad career either. I would say, all works are not easy and require us to put efforts. But, taking the work as a son, a spouse, and as a parent, surely more challenging than the work we can choose to do or not to do.

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I used to tell myself that I know A-Z, but I realised, it will always be a good thing to do to revisit all the things we say we know... Ah, how I should learn to love everything about oil fund for tonight...