I am well aware about the modern generation living in our own bubble. I am referring to the anti-social bubble that we create to avoid talking or even concerning about others. The simplest way is to put on your ear/headphones and voila, you got a bubble around you. If you are in an elevator, the same can be done. Take out your cellphones, and that's it, you are in your own world. If ever anyone wants to talk to you, just lift your palm and say "Talk to the hand."
Gadget nowadays has been a negative influence to almost every relationship. For younger generation -a generalization here because people like me is not young anymore, this is the best way to avoid feeling awkward not knowing how to interact with others. Though it works, but it does not solve the problem altogether. It is just a simple excuse "don't bother me."
Even if I do that, that does not stop people from approaching me. It is just a method to keep me pre-occupied with something. I always enjoy doing things while turning the music very loud. It is a very wrong technique for effective learning, I know, but I couldn't help it. At times, I do enjoy not listening to anything because when I listen to music, the most catchy part is the music, coz I am so bad at catching or following the lyrics. Typical guy, I suppose. Looking at this matter, I always feel like I am a technical kinda person but it always turns out what I believe who I am is not always true. In the end, I would probably have to admit that I am a linguistic person. Actually, the simplest answer will be, I am no body. Please condition me!
This always reminds me of the matter I once posted years ago. I only realized that I have pondered about this after I re-read my earlier postings. In short, everything is not within our control. We just have to accept it. When we think we are good at doing task A, never had we realize that we are way better at doing task B. People like me, I like to think I want to do both A and B, and I want to be good. That's my problem. But, turns out I don't have the leisure, time, money, resource (bla bla bla all excuses) for not learning about new things. I may have become complacent/stagnant when it comes to personal development. What I have been doing for the past weeks is to re-look at my past, so damn missed the past. Anyway, I stumble on old songs that I used to listen. The book about tomorrow is unwritten, and for today it is still a blank page too. On a rough estimate, I could probably live until 60, so half of my book has been written. Couple months from now I will turn 31, or exactly 2 days before the 13th anniversary of 911. So, officially I am entering the 2nd half of my lifespan. Am I ready? Guess the book still remains unwritten. How and what am I going to paint on the blank pages?
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Opportunities in my life so far always come without having me go crazy, and definitely far from having to shed bloody tears. Even if there was, I cannot recall any. But, I keep thinking about this, when it comes to "people come and go," I have tough time letting people go. Why am I so bothered with this? How do I deal with that? Honestly, I hate to let go. Ah, I feel like I wanna do somersault, when was the last time I did that, hmm I'm old dy. I wanna be gymnast!
